Life is pretty much up in the air right now. Which really stinks. I like my little, cute ducks all in a row so I know where I'm headed....or in this case, where someone I love deeply is headed.
What really stinks is this entire thing is out of my hands. I've done the best I could for this person I love. There is still a chance it will work out how we hope but there is always that gloomy cloud hanging over our heads until it is all cleared up.
I don't understand why we are going through this. I don't understand the big deal that is being made out of this particular issue. I don't understand why others are dictating the way it should be. I don't understand why no one really knows what is going on.
In the midst of me crying-my-way-through sharing this not fair situation with a dear friend, I truely believe God spoke to me through her. It is okay if I don't understand a lot of what is going on. It is okay if maybe the person I love's future goes in a different direction than this person and us thought. God is still here. He is still in our lives. He knows the plans for us. He gives us a future and a hope. And even though I would love a neon sign saying to go this way or that way or to tell us what we should do, if God did that it wouldn't require a ton of faith on my part.
So, (insert huge sigh) even though I am NOT enjoying this trip one bit (I can say that out loud because God already knows it...yeah, I kind of told Him...oops!), I will choose to ride this ride with the person I love. And, hello. He is God. He does know what He is doing and doesn't need me telling Him any different. (trust me, I've already tried that approach....doesn't work out the greatest!!) Kind of requires just a wee bit of faith and trust...hmmm....
What about you?
Let the Waters Rise by Mikeschair
***Update: things are looking up. Heard something positive this afternoon concerning the situation. I am happy but cautious. I'll let ya'll know when I'm doing cartwheels!!! ☺
And this video is "just because"! Yep, you are welcome!
Better Than A Hallelujah" by Amy Grant